We’ve each been seeing our own therapist but, for the first time, today we went to his…..together. I was completely honest admitting that although I feel love for him, I don’t feel an intimate love or the “in love” feeling. It was incredibly hard knowing that much of what I had to say was hurtful to him. Ever since leaving the therapist’s office I feel an enormous amount of sadness. I’ve been crying on and off and feel exhausted. I guess dragging up the past events, once again, will do that to you. Or am I grieving the loss of our marriage?
My mood swings have been off the charts. Right now I’m so anxious and sad and the next moment happy and hopeful. I hate the indecision, causing me even more anxiety. I will remind myself that no decisions need to be made today and remember to breathe.
I hope tomorrow is a better day!