It was the day before he was to arrive home and I had made arrangements with a good friend for both of the kids to spend the night the following evening. She probably thought I wanted a romantic, kid-free evening. She didn’t know just how far from the truth she was with THAT thought! My adrenaline is pumping right now remembering all of this. It puts me right back to how I felt at that time.
The next day arrived and my nerves were most definitely frazzled to say the least. I have tears in my eyes writing this because, even though there were other problems within our marriage, I feel that by his actions….of doing what he did….and for so long….he forever ruined US!
I took special care in getting ready….I wanted to look as perfect as possible. I even went out and bought a new top. In part I, I had stated that his love for me was never in question, but I have to admit that until I confronted him, I really couldn’t be sure. The thought crossed my mind that he might possibly be in love with her. I was a hot mess!
It was time for me to leave for the airport to pick him up. On the one hand I was dreading the confrontation that would occur but on the other hand I couldn’t wait to finally be able to look him in the eye and reveal what I had found out.
One more thing……I would, once again, have to summon up the strength to somehow act normal on the ride home!! I would have to put my acting abilities to the test one last time!